Snow Patrol news & community since 2008. ‘I thought about not existing’ – Snow Patrol’s Gary Lightbody on battle with alcohol and depression

512392328Snow Patrol frontman Gary Lightbody has revealed that his battle with alcohol and depression is the reason behind the band’s seven year stretch between albums.

The 41-year-old from Bangor, Northern Ireland, has opened up about his struggles ahead of the release of the band’s new album, Wildness, on May 25, their first since Fallen Empires in 2011.

Speaking to the Telegraph, he revealed that he has suffered from anxiety since he was a teenager and witnessed The Troubles in Northern Ireland.

“I just used to think, ‘I don’t want to be here.’ And that took root. And it’s something I’ve fought with my whole life,” he said.

Before the band signed with Universal and had success with their hit Run from their album Final Straw, they were dropped by another label and Lightbody resorted to drinking during this period.

Touring following the release of Final Straw, however, kept him in check as drinking affects his voice so he did not drink on tour.

A trip to the gym resulted in an emergency doctor’s visit which revealed he had a massive sinus infection, “both sinuses, eye infection, ear infection… my whole head was basically a mess,” he told the Telegraph.

He immediately gave up drugs and alcohol and has been sober ever since.

However, while he was sober he also had to come to terms with his depression.  He says he “started feeling a wave of self-hatred” and began avoiding friends and family, who were reaching out to help him.

Speaking about feeling suicidal, he said, “Yeah, I thought about not existing.  I just felt really, really sluggish… my will to live had kinda ebbed away.”  However, while he thought about not existing, he said he didn’t “think about how to get there”.

With the help of aforementioned friends and family and a psychotherapist he is feeling well and looking forward to the release of Wildness, which draws from his struggles, including the fact that his father was diagnosed with dementia three years ago.  He dedicates a song on the album to his 80-year-old dad.

While it explores some tough themes, however, Lightbody has described Wildness as a “hopeful” record.

“I am sober now for two years and I am able to speak about it with clarity and with hope,” he told Jo Whiley.  “These things are not just sort of open ended in a way where they feel like a lost cause, I am actually talking about these things in a way that I have tried to deal with them positively and hopefully people will hear that in the record.”

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